Why I Think I’m Awesome (And You Think You’re Awesome Too)

Last weekend at The Village, we started a new series called “Rooted.” I issued a 21-day challenge for everyone in our church to begin and end every day by trying to “till the soil,” so to speak, to allow God to grow more deeply in our lives. We have a 21-day reading and prayer plan (you can subscribe and follow along here), and I’m going to be writing some unpolished thoughts from my journal here.

TODAY’S READING: ISAIAH 40:28-31

“Do you not know? Have you not heard? The LORD is the everlasting God, the creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary; they will walk and not be faint.”

A few words stuck out at me as I read these verses this morning.

The LORD is the everlasting God. 

Everlasting. The God before me and behind me, the God with me and beside me, the God who will be always after me.

The Lord is the everlasting God. 

The LORD. Not me. Not my ideas about who God is or what God is. Not my thoughts or my plans or my causes or my ideas. Not my dreams. Not my vision. None of these are the everlasting God.

If that’s true, it means I should give my heart, my trust, my will, my love, all of me, to that God, the true God, not the God I’m making up or the God I want God to be.

The truth is, I think I’m awesome, but in this case it’s not a good thing. The truth is I’ve been arrogant to think I’ve got it all figured out or that I’m smarter than God. Sometimes, I operate in a way that says, “Thank God for me finally being here.”

I think this is one of the biggest mistakes of our generation. Take any issue, and we are really prone to say, “Thank God we’re here now, the enlightened ones who have it all figured out. Thank you God and scripture and 2,000 years of faithful men and women for your contributions, but we’ll take it from here, and we don’t really need your input any more.”

Take any issue, any controversy, any “side,” and we are tempted to dismiss any dissenting voice, anything that seems different than what we think is right or good or true. We’ve set up our own system of judgment, and our opinion is the ultimate measuring stick.

I’m not singling anybody out, I’m singling everybody out, and most of all, I’m singling myself out.

If I’m confessing the truth, I’ll say I’m arrogant and prideful to think I can outthink or out-God God. I think I’m awesome when I think I can out-God God. This is one of the great fallacies I see when I look in the mirror. I can’t out-God God. Travis is not the source of all knowledge. Travis is not the everlasting God. Our culture, as enlightened as it is, is not the everlasting God.

God, may I rely on you and trust in you today, giving you all of myself, my thoughts, my opinions, my dreams, my plans, my words, my actions, willing to admit that you are God and I don’t have to be. Conform my will to your will and not the other way around.

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